It’s not really a wonder why people have such a hard time searching for the truth of the universe, of the divine, even of themselves. Truth is a really weird thing. Even the simplest situation quickly gets complicated.
Example: Before I leave for work every day I straighten my house so that when I get home it will be clean and I don’t have to worry about the mess right away. I can relax.
Until you realize that I’m cleaning up after myself, before myself, for myself, usually while talking to myself.
Let go of the past. Let go of the future. Let go of assumptions about “why” and what’s “normal”. Let the action be the action. I cleaned my house.